August 30, 2011
A pill bug or a roly poly; we all know what kind of insect I am talking about, right? You know; the bug that curls up into a little ball if danger is near. Well, that is how I am feeling. Like danger is near and I just want to curl up in a little ball until all of this is over. Over and done with, actually. No more cancer, no more pills, no more worries. And we really have just started this whole thing. I believe it is a stage of grief. Mom is feeling it too. More so than any of us because it is directly affecting her. When I talked to her yesterday, she said that she feels like she doesn’t want any of this and doesn’t want to go through any of the treatments. Who could blame her? I don’t want to do any of this either, none of us do. Perfectly normal feelings. We talked about how we both know that God is in control here and we can trust in that, but we also know that these are valid feelings and thoughts. God does not value us any less because of those feelings. You know how when you truly love someone you just want to take all their pain away. Try and make it better somehow so that they don’t have to experience it at all or experience it alone. How I wish I could do that for her.
But, now to the killing of the cancer! She started her chemo treatment today with an I.V. of Valcade and the Zometa for bone strength. She will start the Revlimid on Thursday or Friday depending when the delivery is to the house. She will take the Decadron (10 small pills) on Saturday as they are to give her a boost of energy and she would like to have her energy on Sunday for church. Praises that she did not get nauseous or have any side effects today from the drugs so keep praying that that will continue throughout the treatment. Next chemo treatment will be on Friday.
Obviously, they prayers are helping all of us through this and we appreciate the well wishes and hugs and visits from family and friends.
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